Scared.

Im kinda scared. Why? Because I think that life for me is going waaay too fast. Im kinda scared about senior year, and all of that college stuff. I really wanna get into a good college and like stay with all my friends. But i just have this feeling that none of this is gonna happen. And this scares me. I wanna like be a kid again. Go back to kindergarten, have nap time, snacks and all that fun stuff. Being a first grade teacher reminds me of how life was stress free-ish. Even though you had rules to follow, it isnt as stressful as it is being a 16 year old. I wanna go back to being a kid.


Being a teacher at a church, I think im growing a much stronger relationship with God. I used to just go to church and not understand a word, and probably just went cause my grandma, aunts and cousins went. I felt like i was being dragged to church and didnt know why. Now that im older, I understand more and i feel like my relationship with God is growing. I used to be so different when im with church friends and when im with like regular school friends. I think i know better now. It feels different, but its that good feeling.
Oh man. i have to lead devotions on thurday and i have no idea what im gonna talk about.