New years resolutions

* Try to keep my resolutions.
* Do the 365 project?
* Keep up my grades and try to stay away from senioritis.
* Be a better person.
* Keeping in touch with my closest friends is a must.
* Try to have a good 2010 [:

I go on tumblr more often, sorry blogggers D:
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&& im doing the 365 project (: hopefully it wont be a fail
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Sorry bloggger

Rofl, I barely go on here anymore ><
Moved on to Tumblr! haha :x


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Im back? Lol

Wowww. I havent been on this thing in forever >< Mad busy with school and college stuff. ]: Im starting to hate college even though im not in it yet. All the stuff you have to do JUST to apply is difficult. I hate it. I dont even wanna graduate yet >< rofl. I dont wanna mess up though, but i think i already did >< grr. I give up :I I think im better off going to a two year and transferring after cause I doubt im gonna get into Hunter. Shouldve not messed up my sophomore and junior year ><; but whats done is done.

Weeeeeee! Thanksgiving is tomorrow! :D gonna feassst hahaa. that means Christmas is almost here too! ;D Idk what to get people for xmas, and when i ask them, all they say is nothing -_- grr. i needa make my christmas list! [:


I dont get certain people sometimes. They're confusing. ):

Falling Apart.

This whole week was just so asdfghjkl; Its all schools fault. I think, lol. Ughhhh im scared that i wont be able to get into a decent college. Thats like my major fear right now. Its sooo stressful and frustrating. I should've like done better sophomore and junior year :| Like i really wanna get into a good college, or atleast a decent college. I would go to a two year and transfer but i dont know what my parents would think. I think my mom would be fine, but my dad will probably go crazy. Im like falling apart because of this. I even talked to my aunt about this. She is the one who really understands me i think, and she would know how to help me out. So i told her about this, and she says that I shouldnt really worry about what college i get in cause i can transfer out after a year or two. I also need to think about my majors. I only had one in my mind before I talked to her, but after, she gave me some tips to think of more majors and backups. Rofl, we had like this college talk for the longest time. We got home at like 10ish and we stopped talking at like 12 o.o Longest talk I probably ever had. If we didnt have this talk, I'd probably be stressing moreee than right now. >< And stress isnt good. I need to get back on track.

Ohmygoodness.

ASKDFJHADKFG. I never knew senior year could be this hard. So, today we had the senior assembly thing and they were basically talking about EVERYTHING a senior has to do to graduate and apply to college and blahblahblahs. Its mad money too! Senior dues, Senior cruise, Senior prom, Senior trip...all add up to maybe more than $700?..AND you gotta apply for colleges and you have to pay to apply too ]: Applying to college is a pain in the buttocks. So many deadlines. The beginning of senior year is hard ): I have no clue what topic to write for my college essay. -_-

I think I failed my first spanish test. Rofl but i know i passed my math test xD
Its getting cold nowadays. Hoodieeee season! <3 :D But i think im sick..idk if its allergies or im sick, but my nose is running non stop ]: I should start my hw...so tired ]: Senioritis is starting to hit me. ><
I miss miss misssss summer 09' ]:

La escuela.

Blah blah blah. So Senior year started ]: It doesn't feel like it though..i still feel like a junior lollll. I AM going to work my butt off, or try to. I think I have to.. even though i don't really think it counts for college ><; Odee stressful when it comes to college stuff. I realized how much stuff I have to do before applying to colleges. Another thing is family. Sometimes its annoying even though they're trying to 'help' out. I think this year started out pretty okay for me.. I go to allll my classes :D and i try to pay attention as much as i can. I do all my homework too! :D Haha yeah. i never used to do my homework last year..always did it in school and rushed on it. I just wished it didn't have to be this annoying to apply for colleges >< Other than the college stuff, I think this will be a good year. Hopefully..

I have a feeling that i might not pass Spanish though. I don't get a word that comes outta that woman's mouth. I need to try to understand her though cause I need to pass that language regents! ;o Im dying in my English class, i have the most boringgggg teacher everr. Ughhhh. Hes like one of those dumb teachers but hes a hard grader type. Oh my goodness. I think I had a bad start in that class. You should hear my failed stories man. Rofl. Another class that i find kind of boring is my government class. My teacher is very weird..like she jumps around when she talks..LOL. Yeah and most of the students in my class were her students from last year so she just talks to her 'old' students.. My other classes are okay though. I think I might survive [:

We got some ugly planners this year D: LOL.

So I'll stand, with arms high and heart abandoned

Summer Conference 09' just changed me. On Friday, Sept. 4th, a few of my friends and I met up at church to wait for the bus to go to this retreat, with alot of others from OCM. I thought this conference would be like every other summer conference that i had went to. But no, it wasnt like it at ALL. The first day was pretty cool i guess. Rode in the bus for about 3 hrs? I thought i was gonna fall asleep but I couldn't, I was too excited haha and so were my other friends (: As we arrived to Bryn Marw, we unpacked and everything, had lunch, and went to our cabins. The cabin was pretty big compared to the others..our cabin was like 4 cabins connected. So we decided where to sleep and whatnot. After that, I played some volleyball with some people until dinner started. I forgot what we had for dinner LOL. Anyways, after dinner we had a opening ceremony, which was where they introduced the speakers and stuffff like that (: We had a guest speaker for youth and he talked whenever we had message. We had message right after opening ceremony. The guest speaker tend to use alot of vocabulary words, half the time I was so confused..but he had a powerpoint so it was okay. It was somewhat boring at first, but as you listen, you would get what he is trying to say. Although, some people were falling asleep, I don't think it was because he was boring..his messages was pretty intresting. It was probably because of the time or something. After message, we had fellowship. It was pretty fun (: We had to think of our group name and chant. Haha, our group leaders were Kelly and Patricia. They were pretty cool (: Our group names were 1,2 SLURP, WoW. haha. Everything ended at about 11:30- 12. We had snacks and stuff after, then went to cabin to go nighty nights. Most people went to sleep around 1ish? Alot couldnt sleep though >< i think i slept but woke up here and there, and i forgot that i had my ipod on >< My friends and I woke up at 6 to go jogging. It was pretty chilly up there. It was like a major weather change, haha. I loved that kind of weather though, hoodie season! <3 Sunrise was so beautiful, and its amazing how God puts all of these together.

Saturday and Sunday just changed my life. It was like I landed on the other side of the world that i had never imagined. I felt that God has spoken to me and He did. So on Saturday the day started out like the schedule we had..wake up,devotion,breakfast,bible study,worship/msg, lunch, workshop, freetime, dinner, worship/message, fellowship, and last but not least Concert of Prayer. Concert of prayer was just amazing. I remember, before I went to summer conference, a brother in Christ of mine told me to go. Every year during summer conference, i refused to go to prayer vigil..but this year i just went. That time, i had alot on my mind. I felt that God was calling for me to go. I'm glad that my brother told me to go. If he didnt, this conference would have probably been the same as the others. First we just sang praise songs and it was very peaceful. After singing, we sat in a group and we just talked out the problems we had in life. It was so touching and sad. There were tears rolling down my face because of what someone said. I realize that there are other people who need Christ more than I did. After we talked about our problems, we just prayed. I learned that praying to God is a great way to talk to him. I dont quite know how to explain it but yeah. God is always there for you no matter what. He was the one who planned out your life from beginning to end. He knows you from the inside out. This was the night where i felt God talking to me. I felt him close to me. It was like I was in an empty room with white walls and God was the only one there with me. And i was just talking to him like how i would talk in a normal conversation. It was just amazing, indescribable, uncontainable. I learned that there are alot of people who would just pray for you. It was really nice just to know that you have brothers and sisters just praying for you and i would also do the same. After hearing these stories, whether bad or good, i would just pray. I think im praying more then ever now. Its good though. Haha. Oh and there was this one story about our group, about this one person, it doesnt matter what it was, but we prayed about it..God answered our prayers and He helped this one person, and I saw it the next day. It was amazing and i was just shocked and surprised. Wow. Its amazing how He works in our lives. We sang praise songs at the end and I sang my heart out. I sang with arms high and heart abandoned. Its amazing. I dropped everything and had my mind focused on God, because i know that He will never let go, through the calm or through the storm, every high and every low. We ended at about 3am. Me and my friends just laid down on the basketball court and looked up at the sky. It was beautiful. I have never seen so many stars at one time in my life. Its just like wowww. We had to go back to our cabins though cause we weren't supposed to be out so late >< Even though we slept so late, woke up so early, no one regretted it, it was all worth it.

On Sunday, it was also a normal day, we had Sunday service and what not. At the end of the day, was testimony night. Testimony night is where you share how God came into your life. Alot of people went and I was gonna go, but i guess i was too late. Its okay though. There were lots tears and i could relate to some of these stories. It was emotional and i was just glad how God came and changed their lives. It was all for the better. God had also changed my life and I know it was for the better. Through what i have heard about these brothers and sisters, I pray that they keep walking with God and no matter what, they know that He is always with them.

Monday morning came, and it was just a very dull day, kinda..for me atleast. I dont know. I had this feeling inside of me that made me think alot. I dont even know what it was. Maybe because we had to go home? idk but yeah. i was ju st down that day. The atmosphere was just so different when i went home. During the bus ride home, i just listened to the praise songs that i had on my iPod and just thought if how wonderful He really is. It brought tears to my eyes. I fell asleep halfway through the bus ride, i think it was cause there was traffic haha. I just wished conference was a bit longer.

I hope that everyone would feel the same after conference. Some might act differently when they are in conference then when they are at conference. That was probably me a few years ago..I would just go to church, put on a different face and walk out of church with another face. But no, Im renewed and i dont want to walk away from God anymore cause i know that He is almighty. He is the King of kings, Lord of Lords, Prince of peace. My everything. Hes the one who can move the mountains. Hes mighty to save. And He is my best friend. He came into my life and never walked out.

I forgot that this weekend was labor day o.o
oopsies >< :x

God is with you no matter what. Talk to Him,
Any time, anyday, you are just a prayer away.
GOD IS GOOD, ALL THE TIME!
ALL THE TIME, GOD IS GOOD!
Amen <3

"Unearthing the truth: Developing disciples of the word"
But when he, the Spirit of truth, comes, he will guide you into all truth.John 13:16a